5. If Everyone Cared: besides Savin’ Me, this was a song I Iistened to a lot, night after night, while I kept crying to sleep back in 2017. I’ll never forget how much it helped me with kind of mixed self-pity emotions, knowing that nobody could save me from the things I went through, and that I was the only one that could ever get rid of those things. It did happen.
4. Far Away: probably the first or the second Nickelback song I’ve ever heard. A boy I had a crush on in high school suggested this song to one of my female fake accounts. Although he was dating a friend of mine at that time, and she was (she still is) a dear friend of mine, I fell in love with him and couldn’t help but listen to this song on repeat for weeks. That’s such a really beautiful song, and I couldn’t believe someone like him had such a good taste for it.
3. If Today Was Your Last Day: quite a powerful song. I do love its message, specially when Chad Kroeger sings “if today was your last day, and tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?”. Those are definitely one of the most meaningful verses I’ve ever heard and the ones that always make me start thinking about how much my way of thinking holds me back from actually living my life.
2. Lullaby: besides Far Away, this was also one of the songs suggested by the boy I had a crush on. Till this day, I can’t believe how beautiful and lovely a song can be. I remember that it was 2012 when I first listened to it on my old ass, found-on-the-street Nokia N8 and kept playing it over and over again. That was also the time I first read Harry Potter, so I got the habit of reading Harry Potter while listening to Nickelback. I guess nobody will ever sing it better than Chad does.
1. Savin’ Me: I can’t explain why I loved this song this much. Even more than Lullaby, Savin’ Me does hit me in a way no other song does. I love when they sing “hurry, I’m falling” cause they remind me so badly I wanted my lover not to let me alone in the dark, but unlike the song video, I did happen to be the last one standing. I got to listen to Savin’ Me when I faced really bad times. No wonder why this song will probably be one of my all time favorites.
14. Kim Petras.
5. Close Your Eyes: this is the first Kim Petras’ song I’ve ever heard. I guess it was on @bennydrama7’s “Dating a Scorpio” post. I remember not having it at first, but then suddenly getting addicted to it. Although I have nothing to do with the theme of this song, I did love the killing love energy to the point I’d apply that in future relationships.
4. There Will Be Blood: I’ve been mostly listening to this song. Unlike Close Your Eyes, I do relate to it. Lately, I’ve been serving that all-or-nothing, revengeful kind of behavior and I want so bad to defeat my enemies. In my mind, I feel the destructive fantasy Cersei showed us with her “I choose violence” speech. And I do choose so.
3. Sweet Spot: I feel a lot better while playing Sweet Spot. Again, I’m feeling my oats, but not the negative ones. I feel the climax of achieving what I’ve been waiting for throughout this year, and the prize is much better than I would’ve ever expected. I may not have won in April, but I’ve just made it.
2. Icy: this song means a lot to me cause she sings about herself being in a toxic relationship and what that experience did to her. “So dumb, I believed you really liked me” is definitely what I thought after telling the boy I loved I had been missing him and receiving no answers about it. It makes me even dumber loving someone who’s already shown he doesn’t want me back and that’s moved on long ago.
1. Do Me: definitely my favorite song of hers. Everything in this song’s SO good — the lyrics, the chorus, her voice, the instrumentals. Although it’s all about having sex with a boy who apparently does it like no other, I can still cry to sleep while playing this and thinking about the same old love.
13. Ariana Grande.
5. Right There: this was the first Ariana’s song I’ve ever heard. I remember that it was @anddrenunes who first showed me her singing and made me fall in love with her. I guess he had a crush on some random guy and told me I definitely had to listen to it. I got obsessed with her, but not to the point I could call myself her fan at that time.
4. Into You: I totally feel lollipop, cotton candy sky vibes whenever I listen to this song. There ain’t no really deep, meaningful reasons for me to listen to it. I feel like parting and having fun all night without thinking about the day after. I guess it’s totally a gay anthem.
3. Break Free: I wanted to place thank u, next third, but I guess Break Free is definitely a better option. Pretty much like Into You, this song brings me joy and kind of parting and celebrating feelings. Like, “hell yeah, I’ve finally made this!”. And hopefully I did.
2. breathin: an acquaintance of mine once suggested me this. I guess even @thisismewesley is a great fan of it. This song’s message helped me going through difficult times when I made a bad investment and ran out of money because of that. Losing the amount of money I did would make most people too anxious to even breathe. After playing this song on repeat, I’d always slow down a little, breathe and literally stop thinking whenever I felt I was hyperventilating.
1. 7 Rings: probably the reason why I decided to call myself an Arianator. Thank u, next (album) as a whole is a masterpiece, but I do love this song the most, cause it’s all about being rich and bragging about how much you can spend all day. Pretty much buying expensive MacBooks vibes. Interesting fact is that I felt this rich ass fantasy when I had the lowest budget in years.
12. Paramore.
5. Last Hope: I can’t listen to this song without playing Let The Flames Begin and Part II first. I even made a playlist for those three songs cause I once read they together tell a story. At first, I didn’t really like Last Hope. Too much of a melancholic song. Now, I could even skip the first two songs only to listen to this one. I can even see the ashes the burning hope left behind when it extinguished.
4. Let The Flames Begin: if Let The Flames Begin, Part II and Last Hope all together tell a story, LTFB is definitely its first part. I totally feel the growing hot flames of hope as the song progresses. I got to play this way after I found Part II and noticed that they’ve got quite similar rhythms, so I went searching for the connection between these two. My mind blew away when I knew they’re kind of related to The Hunger Games!
3. Decode: this piece brings me back 2009 vibes when I used to watch Twilight. Unlike the movie, this song is just flawless! Paramore made no mistake when they created this masterpiece. It’s helped me a couple of times in the past when I wanted something to keep me numb, but didn’t feel like doing drugs.
2. Monster: if I had to choose five songs to listen to till the day I die, this one would be amongst them. Besides Nickelback’s Far Away, I’ve spent uncountable hours playing this song while reading Harry Potter. I can’t express how much I enjoy it and I highly recommend you giving it a try. I love playing this one and Linkin Park’s New Divide right after.
1. Part II: the climax of the trilogy and definitely one of the best songs I’ve ever heard. When I found out that these three songs are somehow related to The Hunger Games, or maybe they may’ve been influenced by that, I got even more obsessed with this song. It also reminds me that in 2016 I had a crush on that guy I worked with. At some point, he meant the world to me, to then become one of the most toxic people I’ve ever dealt with. When she sings “scars left on my heart formed patterns in my mind”, I see that once again I got disappointed by people I thought I were friends with. Firstly in 2013, then again in 2016.
11. Melanie Martinez.
5. Pity Party — I relate a lot to this song when she says “why’d I put my heart on every cursive letter?”, cause I used to be the person who gives too much not getting the same in return. When she also sings “maybe it’s a cruel joke on me”, I remember of the times I was bullied and made fun of at elementary school. Such hard times pretending I wasn’t gay!
4. Soap — I did use to lip sync to this song, LOL. I didn’t quite pay attention to the lyrics til I decided to write this post. She’s apparently regretful for telling her boyfriend she loves him. I did avoid doing so when I was dating that toxic dude I mentioned some posts ago. One time we were making out, I almost told him I loved him. Thank God I didn’t do that. It’d be a weird thing to say to someone I was dating for only a couple weeks.
3. Cry Baby — this one’s definitely the first of her songs I’ve ever heard. I found her nuts and I got obsessed with Melanie’s talent. I do relate to the song’s theme cause sometimes I see myself as too immature to deal with my problems. I usually end up being a cry baby. After watching the song video once again, I could finally realize that she’s stuck in a dollhouse. I love Easter eggs.
2. Mrs. Potato Head — one of the most beautiful and thoughtful songs I’ve ever heard. Its message is a precious reminder to all of us who don’t feel fine with our bodies. The song video gives me chills when the rabbit’s doing all those facelift procedures. The failure of the girl’s surgery in the video reminds me of when I took some sibutramine¹ pills to slim down that helped me going from 150 to 180 lbs.
1. Dollhouse — definitely my favorite! I’d lip sync to it all day. I love this song of hers the most because Melanie criticizes the idea of a perfect family and hypocritical behavior. I do consider those rather interesting topics, cause I can hardly ever bear to deal with everyone’s fakery when they’re posing as flawless beings. Quick (and random) fact: I find her ex-boyfriend (Crybaby’s brother in the video) really hawt, LOL.
– Tria.
15. Nickelback. December 21st, 2019.
14. Kim Petras. December 21st, 2019.
13. Ariana Grande. December 22nd, 2019.
12. Paramore. December 23rd, 2019.
11. Melanie Martinez. December 26th, 2019.
- In spite of being judgmental — pretty much because those pills sort of fucked me up — I ended up taking some of those pills in order to slim down again. Thankfully, it worked out this time around. However, I highly recommend you don’t do the same.
– Tria. February 28th, 2022.
